( this post is from 2017)
Today I’m going through something very real. I have been thinking about my father and my brother whom I lost in 2013 and 2014 respectively. As I was praying this morning and making my confessions and decreeing my day, one of the things that was on my prayer list is salvation for the person that killed my brother. As I made my request unto to God, I paused and began to reflect about all the good times the two of us had. How he was only 4 months younger than my son Corey and how they loved each other so much. I remembered how he always greeted me with “hey sis” and would give me a hug. He was my security, personal escort, set up man and one of my biggest supporters when I debuted my play. I thought about how we cared for our dad (who was dying from cancer) for 3 months together and how it was his and dad’s sense of humor that kept me sane.
As all these memories began to flood my mind, I began to weep. I heard from within my Spirit, that man makes mistakes but God does not. Although it was not His will for either of them to die the way that they did, He knew that they would and had made provision for them before their passing. You see, in May of 2013, on Mother's day, my dad rededicated His life to Christ and my brother accepted Christ that same day. God had made provision for them both to be in paradise with Him that day.
Though I know that this will not be the last time I will miss them or cry over them, I know that it is okay and that God knows what each tear is for. God comforts me and lets me know that although they are gone, I do not and should not forget what they meant to me.
Rest in Love Edward Lewis London Sr and Courtney Wayne London. Although you are gone, I will always keep your memory alive in my heart.
If you have lost a loved one, know that it is okay to miss them, know that it is okay to cry. When you are finished crying, give your pain to God and He will make your tomorrow better and easier to face.
Scripture: John 11:25, 26 Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live. 26 And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. Believest thou this?
8/19/17 God answered my prayer that day and I did forgive the young man that took my brother's life.
God also showed me that though I was mourning that day, I was also delivered from something...it was unforgiveness. Now I don't hold grudges and it is much easier for me to forgive and separate myself from unpleasant situations. I'm still a work in progress, but God has shown me through this post that I have grown even more in my faith....